It was very hard.
I didn't run away from the hospital at the last moment, but it was a close thing. Very close. When it came down to the wire, I felt like an animal backed into a corner of a cage. Only the knowledge that not going through with it would badly hurt others forced me through the barrier.
I think I'm going to be taking a break from blogging for a while. This has changed a lot of things for me, and I'm no longer completely sure who and what I am. Difficult to have anything to say to other people from that position.
Thank you again to everyone who prayed.
We will not know if cancer is over for another few weeks. When we have the verdict from the histology, I will post the results.
If the news is bad, I think I will be done with both blogging and treatment.