Saturday, December 31, 2011

Today

Surgery done.

It was very hard.

I didn't run away from the hospital at the last moment, but it was a close thing. Very close. When it came down to the wire, I felt like an animal backed into a corner of a cage. Only the knowledge that not going through with it would badly hurt others forced me through the barrier.

I think I'm going to be taking a break from blogging for a while. This has changed a lot of things for me, and I'm no longer completely sure who and what I am. Difficult to have anything to say to other people from that position.

Thank you again to everyone who prayed.

We will not know if cancer is over for another few weeks. When we have the verdict from the histology, I will post the results.

If the news is bad, I think I will be done with both blogging and treatment.



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15 comments:

marie therese 1 said...

I'm there too for other reasons. I got it. Just know that you are in our prayers, thoughts and hearts. Peace, Love and Hope of Christ,
Mary

Fr. Thomas said...

Hilary--hang in there, good days will come soon I hope.

Julie Culshaw said...

I am praying for you.

Maureen said...

I will ask my Aunt, who is a nun, and almost 96 years young, to say prayers 4U!

I'll say some prayers too.

Anonymous said...

Get well soon! JP and Nat

Seraphic Spouse said...

Ditto from Edinburgh--Dorothy and Mark

Colleen Hammond said...

Hoping and praying with confidence that the cancer is over. I hate when uninvited guests show up and overstay their welcome...

Sue Sims said...

You are most eloquent when you don't know what to say.

Sean M. Brooks said...

Hilary:

Offering my good wishes for you. Get well. Will offer a prayer for you.

Sean M. Brooks

Teresa B. said...

Prayers continuing...
Pax Christi,
Teresa B.

Sinéad. said...

Prayers offered for you daily.

Wendy in VA said...

Prayers continuing for you here, too.

ollie said...

God be with you in this period of silence. Be assured of my prayers for you throughout and "let yourself be loved" (Bl. Elizabeth of the Trinity OCD) Pam

Anonymous said...

ditto what ollie said. lit a candle for you at Midnight Mass.

keep blogging if you can....sharing your story helps many others in so many ways

Anonymous said...

I wish that you will be completely well soon and have lit a candle for your intentions at the Our Lady of Lourdes Grotto.

O Mary Immaculate Conceived without Sin Pray for us who have recourse to Thee.

from a long standing reader,

Anne Magdalene